Today has been a fabulous day in more ways than I can go into. Not least becaues I finished quilting my bee quilt. I didn't do any quilting yesterday because I came home from work exhausted and headachy and was going out in the evening. I had a lovely meal out with an old school friend. I got back on track today and in a couple of hours I'd finished the quilting. I LOVE this quilt. Quilting has given me the opportunity to admire every single scrap of fabric and my bee buddies did me proud.
That said it was during the quilting of this beauty that I've done a lot of thinking as to whether I want to continue in these Bee's if they go on for a second cycle or whether or not I want to be in a Bee in the future. I have loved the challenge of making a variety of blocks either using my own stash or other peoples fabric treasures. I feel I've made some firm friends and I hope to meet many of these at the FQ retreat and a few others that can't make it I'm already plotting a way how I can get to meet them too.
Life has not been easy for the six plus months. I know many out in blog land have been going through their own trials too. It's often not at all appropriate to blog the gory details. As a result I know my sewing mojo has suffered because I've felt under huge pressure at times to sew for other people before I contemplate sewing for myself. It's completely taken the fun out of sewing at times. I've been late some months and most bee members have been kind and understanding. Often I've thought why the H*** did I sign up for this?! It's all the more demoralising when you put yourself out to make blocks and then find they don't make the final grade when the quilt is assembled. For me not to have included someone else's block in my quilt it would have had to be seriously Sh** in the extreme. So how rubbish did I feel that someone else thought that about my blocks... So I still have not made up my mind. But at least if I am never in another Bee I will have this lovely wonderful quilt to remind me of the time I was.